He responded with this. He said, “I have come to find that the Holy Spirit frustrates me more than anything. I have found the harder I try and understand it, the more frustrated I become.” I immediately went into “help save my friend from despair” mode. He promptly stopped me and said, “It’s ok, I hope the Holy Spirit frustrates me the rest of my life. That is how I know that God is still revealing himself to me today.”

WOW!!!

I was taken back by his answer.
I was frustrated now that I was not frustrated by the Holy Spirit.

Was I living in such a way that the Holy Spirit decided to not reveal more of God to me until I was willing to step into that frustration?

SO…

With that said I sit here in a quiet little coffee shop wrestling and being frustrated by the Holy Spirit today. Today I started reading in the book of Leviticus and I have been haunted by what takes place in the first eight chapters. At first glance it is nothing more than God telling them how to make atonement for certain actions. However, a deeper look reveals more to the minds eye.

There is this phrase amidst it all. It is this…“WHEN they become aware of THEIR SIN…”

Wait…what? Did you feel that? Yeah that is the kick in the gut.

What on earth does this mean? When they become aware of their sin…?

You mean it is not just simply being revealed to them? It is not plain as day and right in front of them to grab a hold of? God is not hammering it into their minds for them to understand? At first I read those words and wanted to know how one can repent of something that they have no idea they are doing? But then I realized that eventually all things come to light. That all things are revealed that are not good and pleasing to God.

As I came to this new (again) revelation I realized that I was once again frustrated. This time however, I was frustrated in a completely different way. My frustration came from the fact that I wanted to now know WHAT SIN IN MY LIFE DO I NEED TO BECOME AWARE OF!!!?

What is it that is keeping me from being all that God longs for me?

What is is that is keeping me from being the husband and father he calls me to?

What is it that is keeping me from sharing the love and passion of Him with others?

What is it that may in fact be keeping me from having an intensely intimate relationship with him like I never have before?

All I know is this…When I become aware of what it is…I will do the only natural thing I know to do…

FALL ON MY FACE IN REPENTANCE AND OFFER ALL OF MYSELF BACK TO GOD HIMSELF!!!!

-What is the one thing that the Holy Spirit of God is frustrating you with today?-